20 vs. 30

I haven't been exercising enough this week. It's tricky when I have this one golden time at the beginning of the day to do it. If I let that moment pass by, forget it!

So, I've been trying to bump up my elliptical time from 20 minutes to 30 minutes. 30 is so much longer than 20! When Matthew exercises with me, he won't let me stop and I make it the full 30 minutes. I was on my own this morning though and wimped out and just did 20. I even watch recorded shows while I do it, recorded shows that I really want to watch! But I guess that's not enough motivation. I just have to keep pushing myself since I want this so badly. And wouldn't it be great to look like that lady to the right?!

Funny story - last year when I wanted to exercise to lose weight (i think it was last year), I recorded some shows that I really wanted to watch: House and Law & Order SVU. I told myself that I could only watch those shows when I exercised. Then I never exercised, and I never watched my shows! It got to the point where the DVR was filling up and I had to sneak a few shows in. Then I started deleting House episodes to make room for Law and Order since I knew House reruns are played on USA. While sneaking in a few shows, I found out that Christopher Meloni left the show. I only watched it for him and Mariska Hargitay! The cases were awful. So, I deleted an entire season of that show. Haha.

I had already deleted a bunch of House episodes, and they weren't showing on USA. What a disaster. This summer I finally got the last season of House on Netflix and watched the entire thing in a week. Without exercising. It was good though! What a great ending to that series.

I decided that tricks would not work. I would only exercise if I really wanted to exercise. And that is what I am doing! I am ready to do the work. The most exciting part is that I am really doing it, and really seeing results! Almost every night I say to Mike, "I'm really doing this! I'm really losing weight!" And he says, "I know, honey. I'm so proud of you." He must think I'm so silly. But he knows I'm sincere. I am amazed everyday that I am sticking to my plan.

I am so anxious to weigh in on Friday. I know it's going to be a good one!